scherezade siobhan 69
A toiled afternoon of blue spiderwort & stone-crushers.
A scurrilous game of cricket offending the cedar windows.
Men laboring their skin to the suggestions of kokum sharbat.
In my head, the drone of incalculable construction. Diurnal
earthmoving. My memory—an oxbow lake. Yet this room,
distant from all the life it could rent to sleep. Just the puzzle
of my own breath—pale ریت floating like a patch of drowsy
gossamer. It took a requited silence to finally see what we had
faulted into speaking. A sentence scattered within its intention’s
peculiar shipwreck. How far did you grow from me. How quickly
I tailgated the compass into the sea’s black dementia. How deep
was I laid astray to mine my body’s own nocturnal groundswell.
To return its found object. Its forged signature. Its foundered infinity.
ہمدرد beloved of shared pain praise to this Untranslatable cantillated
as rain margining the duskgreen of sycamore maple our laden frond
its tinkered codling in our gauzed attenuate what waters ferment us
leave us to the lax pinions of our gills in their wonted soughing i clay
a word then another knowing how little can be kilned of memory
that balcony naked of its pendulous vines nameless colours that once
toiled against the quiet address of my body river of strands its mud-linen
nesting his carrion even the nerve of trees lit with their own recitatives
green in dhikr we were once made beautiful by invisible hands wood
-smoothed furs lengthening the unseen warrens there is no language that
desires my return to any intended blooming in every demarcation of chance
or coil i am only recognizable in what i won’t answer with this long walking
as if to put back my ungrown Indelible قاصد into the remnant of debits
what skin am i loosened from that mess of mud gloving the natural disasters
nationed in my sleepwhat lapin-irisstrokes its heatagainst my peregrine
Scherezade Siobhan is an award-winning Indo-Roma writer, psychologist and community catalyst who founded and runs The Talking Compass— a therapeutic space dedicated to decolonizing mental health. She is the author of 3 books - Bone Tongue (Thought Catalog, 2015), Father, Husband (Salo Press, 2016) and The Bluest Kali (Lithic Press, 2018). Send her puppies and chocolate at email@example.com or at @zaharaesque on twitter/IG.